Chocolate Animal Cracker Butt!

I am soooo sore!!!! It started yesterday after I took a nap... I excersized right before nap, I did slim in 6 which is an amazing and easy workout that was the top workout like 4 years ago, I also paid $70 for it at the time and its still kicking my butt so I know its awesome... well anyway even though I stretched before and after I am having the worst trouble walking up and down the stairs and just in general my leg muscles are so sore right now I just want to sit and cry. I know it will get better but this feeling is soooo not a motivator. so my husband decided yesterday that he's sick of eating as much as he is and wants to loose weight. :D yay!!!! I have a food motivator now whoo!!! I know he won't have a lot of time a week to excersize with me but at least he will help me control portions. one step at a time right?

ha so I made the biggest decition of my life and possibly the dumbest.... as most of you know I have not been fond of the idea of teaching. It started to get stressful and the last thing I wanted to do so in effort to not make myself "stuck" in a job for my whole life I chose to switch my major to business. I am freaked out... I have never taken a business class in my life (aside from what my mom could teach me about budgeting) I am running on my husbands faith that I am able to do this, and if anyone knows me and my abilitys its him. I just wish I was as confident that I can do this as he is... but I found out that half of the classes in business I was already scheduled to take in teaching so one way or another I have no choice but to to do those. They don't sound TOO hard but again never done anything like this.

I recently came up with this plan and its developing constantly daily. Basically I want to open up a Photography/Wedding planning shop. One side is where I will have mettings with the brides and whatever family they have as a wedding planner and in the other half of the building will be a photography studio. Baisically the photographer/s will need to be able to do weddings but someone (or the same person) will also need to be present to have on-site shoots, meaning they will be taking engagment photos, family pictures, holliday pictures and the like. I adore the idea of being a wedding planner and I know photography is a huge thing involved with weddings so having them both I can totally set the bar :D one of those use our program you can have a discount on our photographer kind of thing. what do you guys think? could it work???
I have no clue where I would set up a business yet but I want to understand the process before getting in over my head. But it sounds like so much fun :D!!!!

on now for the explination of the tital.... basically I was eating chocolate animal crackers and I actually found one that was like two melded together to form a very realistic animal (like a donkey or something) that was actually fat and had two butt cheeks :D lol I was laughing so hard!!! It looks funny I might just take a picture and put it on facebook for kicks ;) Deffiantly showing the hubby though :D I love his reaction to things like that.... that whole your a dork but so cute kind of look lol

Thats it! lol give me your input I don't want to get crazy over something that won't work :)

Of Course!

Ya so yesterday couldn't have ended better.... or should i say this morning for you normal people. i was up till almost 6 but it was soooo worth it. (sorry to those who knows what that means ;)) anyway starting at the begining. yesterday i was miserable. my sister came over and my hubby tried to say bye to everyone but we were all kinda focused on her (and i was still mad) well he was set to close. even when he knows i'm mad about something he still usually stays till close and comes home and tries to fix it later. well yesterday arround 830 i was loosing it i had cried like 5 times i was so mad at myself. the last reasoning was because i felt like i ruined tre's really cool art project it got water on it and splashed i felt horrible and was loosing it again. i had started water for my mac and cheese because i tend to eat alot when i'm upset (and it was supper time but still) and i'm standing in the kitchen and he comes walking through the door. drops everything and hugs me. of course i was loosing it again lol. but he said he was sorry and he wanted to fix it and he couldn't work another min knowing i was upset. ya romantic much!!!! sigh.... it was awsome.... we snuggled up on the couch (all 5 of us) and watched dancing with the stars together and then went and bathed the kids then went to bed..... ish ;) it was awsome... and of course today he has this freakishly long work day... which in a way is probably a good thing since i have homework and he's a HUGE distraction.....

yes i still feel chunky and lazy but i've learned today that part of the reason i've been unmotivated is because i'm not listening to my body when it tells me i'm pushing to hard or when i'm sick. but i started taking things slow and stretching so maybe that will help... we will see.

i miss tre... i know he's having fun but it drives me crazy that hes gone... its also erry quiet...:/ oh well he will be home soon so i can relax... :)

I quit

grrrrr! guys suck.
ok they don't but that doesn't mean i can't be frsutrated some days. last night i went to bed alone. it was after 2am... is it that hard to go to bed on time? what is on time anyway.... i don't even know anymore. i hate being frustrated with him. i get 4 hours of sleep on an average night lately my days have been longer because we don't have naps we try it just never works anymore. i want to scream... i love him to death but i'm not doing this anymore. 2am is bedtime it has to be if its earlier yay! but thats the latest i'm staying up. i know i've said that like 100 times now but this is it. tre' has to go to school and when i'm passing out making him almost miss his bus that takes him to school by NOON theres a problem.

weight loss is a waste of time. i gave up a week or two ago. i'm frustrated with it its not working and i'm tired of doing it alone. i've ate what i've wanted and drank md like its water... and in return nature added like 8lbs.... sigh. i'm so tired of this. i need motivation. i feel like i should just go hide and cry for a few hours makig everything better... i know it wont work but that doesnt mean i don't want to.

tomorrow will be better. it has to be. i just don't know that i can get anything back the way it was. and its frustrating. so many things to think about. simply put God sucks, husbands are not reliable like they should be, and i'm a fat lazy mother that isn't going anywhere in life. rediculas? i don't think so. at least not at this point. theirs no other way for me to look at it right now. please remember that these are vents and may change completly in a day or two just what i'm feeling right now.