Things are changing every day... To be honest this whole photographer thing scares me. I mean i love taking pictures but i also get that there are like tones of people better than me out there and I know it will take me years before i can really sit down and prove that i can be just as good as anyone else but getting to that point is going to be hard. i know its something i want to do i just want to be good at it, i want to be able to look at my pictures and be proud of them and at this point i'm really not. i hate editing too, thats always driven me crazy a great photographer shouldn't have to edit hardly anything maybe a photo or two but even then they may not even need to keep those. also finding a job in photography to really make it worthwhile is not easy. one of the main places that have specific photgraphy jobs are newspapers and not many of them want a full time person they would rather buy a pic or two of the event from anyone with a decent shot and send them on their way. it sucks. i feel like i'm back at the beginning.
with my sister being a para it really kills the fun of that job, i mean if she can do it anyone can. i thought i was really good at it better than my whole family and they thought so too then all of a sudden my sister decides it would be cool i don't even know what possesed her to chose that over the million other things she's good at. but that left me with nothing. i don't know what to do now. i can't go into teaching when its already all about her and her future mother-in-law who is on the school board. urg!!! i'm at a loss what am i suppose to do now!? i mean oveasly right now i have my kids and they are my focus along with homework and hubby of course. but then what tre's already in school ben will be in school next year and ty soon after. its happening to fast. i'm not ready for this. my plans are being crushed. god chances are i'll be stuck working at walmart the rest of my life... or atleast through the christmas seasons though i have to admit it is pretty fun ;) if you like the high energy and fast pace work anyway. oh what else can i do... i feel so lackin in talent right now. everyone is already doing everything i thought interesting and most are doing it way better. you know the depressing thing... i actually thought about working at ph... i know scary right o.0 i mean thats totally his thing but most days he makes it sound fun and easy that it almost makes me want to be there enjoying it with him. and then reality sets in and i think better of it. POOOOO!!!!!
tre's been having great day's at school! i'm so happy and proud. he's such an amazing helpful loving kid. I know he will always be that way, its his personallity all he wants to do is help people and make everyone have a great day. he's always the one that comes up and gives me hugs and asks if i need anything or if i'm ok. hes even let me sit and cry on him a few times... which is sad because toddlers should never have to do that for their parents but i'm hardly ever reminded that he's only three... i need to make his birthday special this year... just not sure how to do it... i wonder if they make mario cakes lol.... oh right school well he got to get in the giant borrowed high school bus today. he was freaking he loved it and practicly ran up the steps it was so cute i barly got a bye lol. his brother was going crazy waving franticlly and trying to go with. i love his bus driver she is amazing, she even beeps and waves when she passes to make sure he knows that she saw him waving bye (again lol) though today he climbed out of the only slightly smaller but still as tall bus he took a step to quick and wasn't holding the rail so he kind just slid out of the bus to me and smiled and waved and said bye then we went inside once she was really gone and he finally said ow lol he only scraped his back a little bit it was hardly red but he still had to mention that it still hurt of course. another school day tomorrow... i'm already garenteed less than 6 hours of sleep now... oh well its worth it he loves school and i love him.
ben's doing a wonderful job potty training! he and i are finally connecting i'm actually getting hugs and stuff durring the day. he's starting to act like he needs me. whoo! so long story short he's very much a daddy and nana's boy he has always acted like he's hated me since birth actually. he's the only boy that didn't want to be held constantly in the hospital i tried too but he was more content in his plastic box lol. he also hardly ever came near me its always been about daddy... he was the favorite... in fact ben never even said any form of mommy till he was over a year old. it was depressing but again i had tre' who wanted no ones attention but mine.
tyler tried crawling today... this is nothing new for my boys they were all crawling and walking pretty early tre' was walking by 9 months and yes i have proof :P ben didn't want too he could but he always just crawled which started around 10months so he was a little behind his brothers rapid phaze. but they all rolled over quick and held bottles quick and that kind of thing very early it weirded out the doctors they didn't believe me most of the time. tyler is now 3 months whoo!
thats pretty much my only update for now.... not really thinking of anything else to say... probably going to watch a show then go to bed... wouldn't bother but the DVR is at 96% and we have stuff to record... so night :)
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Decisions stink :P
Well.... today was eventful.... I don't even know what to say... (ok i do but still) my mother is an interesting person to be around... we went to half price and i watched her get horribly depressed about the price they were trying to give her for the dvd's and tv series she brought in. Just dumb... overall a bit stressful. I have a hard time with spending time with her since we are more different than I let on.
After our "fun" half price trip we went back to ph for supper... it was really weird everyone was staring at us and odly like 3 guys came over to look at the baby..... guys? really? ok.... I don't know what to think it was different. Sigh... the only enjoyment I got from going was admiring my sexy husband in his uniform.... thats probably the only part I like about him working... I keep telling him that too and he thinks I'm nutz.... so whats wrong with thinking he's hot isn't that the fun of being married ;) course then he comes home and switches to sweats and teeshirts and takes the fun out of it.... :P oh well. Walking in their seeing him stressed and upset he couldn't sit down with us made me want to drag him away and just take him home. It was really hard to just sit and wait till things calmed down... which they did and he was able to come see us a few times... but it was still hard and frustrating.
So found a better camera... I realized after deep thought that even though it comes with 2 lenses and a tone of other gagets that its only its an 8.o megapixel and the camera I have now (granted its just a regular camera) is a 7.1.... I figured that if I really wanted to do photography and be serouse about it I need a really good camera. So I found one (still the same brand cause I can keep my memory card that way) its a little more pricy but in some ways that helps me be more pacient and not rush out and grab it off the shelf... its amazing what happens when you look at things logicly right? I figured out for photography you don't need a degree... thankfully because according to a lot of people its a very high demand degree so their are hardly any spaces left for people who are just interested in the subject. plus it would mean going to a real college instead of online which doesn't work for me.
my baby's going to school monday... i feel like crying my eyes out... i'm going to miss him so much. he's already got the teacher's name memorized and the entire route through the school and he's totally psyched about the bus. I hope it lasts :( I don't know what i would do if i dropped him off and he burst into tears... i would probably grab him and put him back in the car and race home. as a parent thats the hardest thing you have to deal with are tears... especially scared tears... i lost it several times when he did that at his last school the first few times... it was sooo hard... i actually had to have my mom take him because i was barely making it back out of the classroom before i was crying with him. hopefully he will be better.
trying to think if their was anything else...
i have a 700 word paper due tomorrow i should work on so probably not... though i'll probably get a sucky grade anyway it seems to be the trend in these stupid classes. i was so afraid to start school just for this reason... i'm not smart. not book smart anyway... you ask me anything about relationships, people, anything like that and i can help or atleast tell you why they may be thinking or acting a certain way... i pride myself on knowing how to do that... but when it comes to math and science and all that book stuff i am so lost and feel like the dumb kid.... (course the learning disability doesn't help things... test anxioty is a killer for me every time) i was getting excited because my first few classes were so easy and i flew right through them... then the computer class hit and i was mad and frustrated because i couldn't understand anything it was horrible. and now these classes i finally think i get it and it blows up in my face.. no one even coments on my posts its like i don't even exsist. i know it will be better... i mean it realllllly needs to be but right now i just want to scream and quit.... and it doesn't help that i have now put teaching as like my backup backup plan... i have so many other things that are sounding more interesting by the day it is making it difficult to be dedicated to classes on teaching... but i want a degree in something so like it or not i'm sticking to it... besides kids are my strong suite if i can't figure out questions about them i'm screwed...
oh well enough rambling...
If you have any questions for me or want to know anything just ask. I will answer 99.9% of your questions their are VERY few things i prefer not to talk about... in fact as i'm typing this i can't think of anything i would talk about... but who knows till you ask right... ? so go for it... its get to know Lora/Pixy week Bloggin'
After our "fun" half price trip we went back to ph for supper... it was really weird everyone was staring at us and odly like 3 guys came over to look at the baby..... guys? really? ok.... I don't know what to think it was different. Sigh... the only enjoyment I got from going was admiring my sexy husband in his uniform.... thats probably the only part I like about him working... I keep telling him that too and he thinks I'm nutz.... so whats wrong with thinking he's hot isn't that the fun of being married ;) course then he comes home and switches to sweats and teeshirts and takes the fun out of it.... :P oh well. Walking in their seeing him stressed and upset he couldn't sit down with us made me want to drag him away and just take him home. It was really hard to just sit and wait till things calmed down... which they did and he was able to come see us a few times... but it was still hard and frustrating.
So found a better camera... I realized after deep thought that even though it comes with 2 lenses and a tone of other gagets that its only its an 8.o megapixel and the camera I have now (granted its just a regular camera) is a 7.1.... I figured that if I really wanted to do photography and be serouse about it I need a really good camera. So I found one (still the same brand cause I can keep my memory card that way) its a little more pricy but in some ways that helps me be more pacient and not rush out and grab it off the shelf... its amazing what happens when you look at things logicly right? I figured out for photography you don't need a degree... thankfully because according to a lot of people its a very high demand degree so their are hardly any spaces left for people who are just interested in the subject. plus it would mean going to a real college instead of online which doesn't work for me.
my baby's going to school monday... i feel like crying my eyes out... i'm going to miss him so much. he's already got the teacher's name memorized and the entire route through the school and he's totally psyched about the bus. I hope it lasts :( I don't know what i would do if i dropped him off and he burst into tears... i would probably grab him and put him back in the car and race home. as a parent thats the hardest thing you have to deal with are tears... especially scared tears... i lost it several times when he did that at his last school the first few times... it was sooo hard... i actually had to have my mom take him because i was barely making it back out of the classroom before i was crying with him. hopefully he will be better.
trying to think if their was anything else...
i have a 700 word paper due tomorrow i should work on so probably not... though i'll probably get a sucky grade anyway it seems to be the trend in these stupid classes. i was so afraid to start school just for this reason... i'm not smart. not book smart anyway... you ask me anything about relationships, people, anything like that and i can help or atleast tell you why they may be thinking or acting a certain way... i pride myself on knowing how to do that... but when it comes to math and science and all that book stuff i am so lost and feel like the dumb kid.... (course the learning disability doesn't help things... test anxioty is a killer for me every time) i was getting excited because my first few classes were so easy and i flew right through them... then the computer class hit and i was mad and frustrated because i couldn't understand anything it was horrible. and now these classes i finally think i get it and it blows up in my face.. no one even coments on my posts its like i don't even exsist. i know it will be better... i mean it realllllly needs to be but right now i just want to scream and quit.... and it doesn't help that i have now put teaching as like my backup backup plan... i have so many other things that are sounding more interesting by the day it is making it difficult to be dedicated to classes on teaching... but i want a degree in something so like it or not i'm sticking to it... besides kids are my strong suite if i can't figure out questions about them i'm screwed...
oh well enough rambling...
If you have any questions for me or want to know anything just ask. I will answer 99.9% of your questions their are VERY few things i prefer not to talk about... in fact as i'm typing this i can't think of anything i would talk about... but who knows till you ask right... ? so go for it... its get to know Lora/Pixy week Bloggin'
Money... you can never have enough right?
Sigh... I know I need to relax and focus on more important things. But I can help getting stressed over stupid things. Really another vent about lack of money!?! apparently... Thats the price we pay for living on our own I guess. Better to have someplace to sleep than a bunch of stuff. I have to come up with some form of a plan for tre's birthday, though I don't know why I try no one really shows up sept my parents and they tend to object to almost every plan I make. My camera has 7 days left... I know theirs a bunch more but for some reason I'm horribly attached to this one... I don't know why its not even the first one I found but thats just my personality I guess.
Wii fit is going painful... I am so sore... I know thats expected for the most part but still... ow... at least I can feel it right?...
Hubby's dead tired... between the kids, homework, and stupid PH he's getting next to no sleep and its bugging me. I want him closer, I want less hours, sadly I really just want him home. This job has always been stresfull for me, I'm not fond of the people he works with or the fact that he is so crazy dedicated to them and they give him nothing in return. Its crap, and even though as his wife I am required to support him despite if I like it or not, it still frustrates me.
My mother is also saying she is coming over today... that alone is stressful. I don't know why it stresses me so much. I guess its mostly just little comments... like last time she said wow you started spring cleaning!.... hello! we've been here like a month its not going to be that dirty... and no I don't spring clean I clean every single morning so yeah it always looks nice in here atleast untill about 8pm then it gets slightly messy cause the kids start getting really crazy, but she came at like noon. sigh... stupid things I shouldn't be getting upset about. and yet these stupid hormones are driving me insane. Sigh...
I need chocolate... I can pretend that will help right? despite the million points... blah... Going back to finish more homework.... again :P
Wii fit is going painful... I am so sore... I know thats expected for the most part but still... ow... at least I can feel it right?...
Hubby's dead tired... between the kids, homework, and stupid PH he's getting next to no sleep and its bugging me. I want him closer, I want less hours, sadly I really just want him home. This job has always been stresfull for me, I'm not fond of the people he works with or the fact that he is so crazy dedicated to them and they give him nothing in return. Its crap, and even though as his wife I am required to support him despite if I like it or not, it still frustrates me.
My mother is also saying she is coming over today... that alone is stressful. I don't know why it stresses me so much. I guess its mostly just little comments... like last time she said wow you started spring cleaning!.... hello! we've been here like a month its not going to be that dirty... and no I don't spring clean I clean every single morning so yeah it always looks nice in here atleast untill about 8pm then it gets slightly messy cause the kids start getting really crazy, but she came at like noon. sigh... stupid things I shouldn't be getting upset about. and yet these stupid hormones are driving me insane. Sigh...
I need chocolate... I can pretend that will help right? despite the million points... blah... Going back to finish more homework.... again :P
Friday, March 26, 2010
!GNITNEV
Another lack of sleep day... we are so not morning people. Had to be at tre's new school in lansing for a meeting to get him all set up by 10am... which ment I had to get up and start the proccess of getting everyone ready by 830am.... well we made it just in time then had to sit for half an hour because nancy tre's old teacher was trapped in a meeting that ran over, but the kids did really good and tyler was alseep the entire time so whooo! So he was a little confused and didn't want to leave but thats a good thing right? sigh... he starts monday, he goes 4 days in the afternoon from about noon-3. For me its a bit stressful, he's my closest buddy (has been forever) and its hard not having him at home even though he drives me nutz most days.
I still have to call tiny-k and see if they will come over and do a quick speech eval on ben to either confirm or deny that he needs any help. Because honestly he talks up a storm but something still seems off he says sentances backwords and things like that so i figure it wouldn't hurt to get him evaluated too.
Lunch was eventful. Tre' was eating pasta then suddenly started getting sick he missed everything but the table and his chin thank goodness I probably would have lost it too if I had to smell that all the way home. No idea why he got sick, wasn't much, just freaky. Pizza hut food is killer :P
Weight loss is not going as planned despite my working out I still havent been staying within my points for the day and using all my weekly allowance points the first day I get them then trying to spend the rest of the week making up for it. Well yesterday I sunk into another depressing state because I lost nothing and gained another 1.5lbs. Today was suppose to be different. I think I went over but only by a point which is progress.
Homework sucks... I still only got a 7/10 on my latest quiz which will not help my grade at all... 81% in the class sucks... and if it doesnt' get better I won't get money back like we so desperatly need. Plus the stupid teaching class is confusing, I forgot how much more was involved with teaching besides sitting in a classroom and actually teaching. Theres meetings, conferences, and a lot of stupid paperwork (I don't mind the grading part just everything else...) it just seems really stressful to keep up with.
Photography... ahhh how fun would that be.... I am so excited! Now if I could just get my camera and start studying up on everything I should be fine :D So fun!!!!!
Lets see, what else......
Didn't get the fan fixed today either we missed him stopping by, or he never came. Either way poo.
Oh and my phone is practicly dead... so if someone needs me they are going to have to talk over facebook or wait an hour for me to respond because thats about how long it takes for me to get a message and then get signal back again to send one... hopfully I can get that fixed soon mom's looking into it (hubby's mom that is.... I miss them... but thats another vent)
Now that I've wrote a book I'm going to bed... Night everyone :D
I still have to call tiny-k and see if they will come over and do a quick speech eval on ben to either confirm or deny that he needs any help. Because honestly he talks up a storm but something still seems off he says sentances backwords and things like that so i figure it wouldn't hurt to get him evaluated too.
Lunch was eventful. Tre' was eating pasta then suddenly started getting sick he missed everything but the table and his chin thank goodness I probably would have lost it too if I had to smell that all the way home. No idea why he got sick, wasn't much, just freaky. Pizza hut food is killer :P
Weight loss is not going as planned despite my working out I still havent been staying within my points for the day and using all my weekly allowance points the first day I get them then trying to spend the rest of the week making up for it. Well yesterday I sunk into another depressing state because I lost nothing and gained another 1.5lbs. Today was suppose to be different. I think I went over but only by a point which is progress.
Homework sucks... I still only got a 7/10 on my latest quiz which will not help my grade at all... 81% in the class sucks... and if it doesnt' get better I won't get money back like we so desperatly need. Plus the stupid teaching class is confusing, I forgot how much more was involved with teaching besides sitting in a classroom and actually teaching. Theres meetings, conferences, and a lot of stupid paperwork (I don't mind the grading part just everything else...) it just seems really stressful to keep up with.
Photography... ahhh how fun would that be.... I am so excited! Now if I could just get my camera and start studying up on everything I should be fine :D So fun!!!!!
Lets see, what else......
Didn't get the fan fixed today either we missed him stopping by, or he never came. Either way poo.
Oh and my phone is practicly dead... so if someone needs me they are going to have to talk over facebook or wait an hour for me to respond because thats about how long it takes for me to get a message and then get signal back again to send one... hopfully I can get that fixed soon mom's looking into it (hubby's mom that is.... I miss them... but thats another vent)
Now that I've wrote a book I'm going to bed... Night everyone :D
Thursday, March 25, 2010
All the pretty new things....
So when we moved in our towel rack broke the first time we used it, just fell right out of the wall! So when the landlord people sent us our what was broken before you moved in sheet we were told to add that to the list, along with the fan in our bedroom that does not work. Well this morning (probably the only reason I'm awake now given I'm running on about 5 hours of sleep) is because the landlord and the guy who built these houses came to finish repairs on the towel bar and look at the fan to see what needs to be fixed. Well I guess instead of just getting the same kind of fan they are going to replace it with a fancy one that has a remote like our living room fan. Whoo!
I got my Wii fit yesterday!!! I know have the board and both wii fit games! and they are kicking my but already :/ ow.... I did the running in place and about threw up afterwords.... I guess that means its working!? lol... I was starting out a little harder than I needed to anway. Just antzy to get this fat off!!!!! I'm destined to loose 75lbs that would put me within my weight range.... I have a long way to go :( so far only down 5.... but I still have 75 left :'( Here's to that long journey....
I got my NCIS today... all seasons out right now 1-6.... They were from china so the casing is different but I could care less. I'm just excited I can catch up now....
I found the perfict camera.... Its so horribly depressing. I can get two lenses a bag a usb and about a dozen other things with it for only $350.... which is like a quarter of what its worth... but I'm broke... That alone is frustrating.... :( theres 9 days left on ebay so we will see how it goes :( but I don't see it happening....
Hubby's out registering the van and bringing us lunch...I am starving right now... water does nothing in the mornings... I should have had breakfeast but by the time I remembered that he was due home. Oh well one step at a time. Do not have anything to do today thank goodness... well besides school anyway but at least I get a little break to enjoy the family... so far they are wonderful today I got hugs and kisses when they woke up and tyler laughed at me... Awsome!
Thats about it.... going in for lunch probably update again later :D
I got my Wii fit yesterday!!! I know have the board and both wii fit games! and they are kicking my but already :/ ow.... I did the running in place and about threw up afterwords.... I guess that means its working!? lol... I was starting out a little harder than I needed to anway. Just antzy to get this fat off!!!!! I'm destined to loose 75lbs that would put me within my weight range.... I have a long way to go :( so far only down 5.... but I still have 75 left :'( Here's to that long journey....
I got my NCIS today... all seasons out right now 1-6.... They were from china so the casing is different but I could care less. I'm just excited I can catch up now....
I found the perfict camera.... Its so horribly depressing. I can get two lenses a bag a usb and about a dozen other things with it for only $350.... which is like a quarter of what its worth... but I'm broke... That alone is frustrating.... :( theres 9 days left on ebay so we will see how it goes :( but I don't see it happening....
Hubby's out registering the van and bringing us lunch...I am starving right now... water does nothing in the mornings... I should have had breakfeast but by the time I remembered that he was due home. Oh well one step at a time. Do not have anything to do today thank goodness... well besides school anyway but at least I get a little break to enjoy the family... so far they are wonderful today I got hugs and kisses when they woke up and tyler laughed at me... Awsome!
Thats about it.... going in for lunch probably update again later :D
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Post-Pregnancy Crap
I am so moody all I want to do is curl up and hide somewhere. Everything is frustrating me, I was crying earlier over spilled popcorn... how depressing right? Blah. overall today went really great we got to go out for olive garden and then went shopping. It was fun, I miss when we can do stuff like this together as a family. But at the same time I just wanted to scream at everyone.
Then we got home and the boys went from behaving to tornados... I don't know what happend but all of a sudden they were running through the house jumping over the baby, screaming, getting into things that could hurt them, everything you can imagin all in about 10 min... I lost it. I freaked out and lost it. Thats all there is to it, I just went up to my room with tyler and sat and cryed for like 1o min.
My hubby came to check on me like he always does and in my anger and depression I sent him away. And as usual he smiled, kissed my head and went and calmed the boys down. I don't know how he does it but I know I could not do this without him. Being a mom is impossible alone (atleast a mom of 3). There's no better husband...at least not for me.
This is not the first time I've been upset... the doctors say it can last up to a year before my hormones go back to normal and I am not constantly changing moods at the drop of a hat. It scares me, I'll admit it. I have noticed improvements in my mood when I work out and eat right but I am still having a hard time being consistant with it. Lack of friends that I can talk to about anything has something to do with it I'm sure. And the ones I can talk to live miles and miles away making it that much harder to stay connected. Maybe one of these days things will change, theres always hope.
Sorry for the depressed ramblings, but this is my brain right now, and sadly its very normal. venting is what blogs are for (atleast mostly) so that is what you will probably see most from mine. If you get depressed, or don't want to read I will understand.
Goodnight... I think I'm going to take a long hot bath and hope for a better mood...
Then we got home and the boys went from behaving to tornados... I don't know what happend but all of a sudden they were running through the house jumping over the baby, screaming, getting into things that could hurt them, everything you can imagin all in about 10 min... I lost it. I freaked out and lost it. Thats all there is to it, I just went up to my room with tyler and sat and cryed for like 1o min.
My hubby came to check on me like he always does and in my anger and depression I sent him away. And as usual he smiled, kissed my head and went and calmed the boys down. I don't know how he does it but I know I could not do this without him. Being a mom is impossible alone (atleast a mom of 3). There's no better husband...at least not for me.
This is not the first time I've been upset... the doctors say it can last up to a year before my hormones go back to normal and I am not constantly changing moods at the drop of a hat. It scares me, I'll admit it. I have noticed improvements in my mood when I work out and eat right but I am still having a hard time being consistant with it. Lack of friends that I can talk to about anything has something to do with it I'm sure. And the ones I can talk to live miles and miles away making it that much harder to stay connected. Maybe one of these days things will change, theres always hope.
Sorry for the depressed ramblings, but this is my brain right now, and sadly its very normal. venting is what blogs are for (atleast mostly) so that is what you will probably see most from mine. If you get depressed, or don't want to read I will understand.
Goodnight... I think I'm going to take a long hot bath and hope for a better mood...
The first day... of our new life
Wow, its been 1 month since we moved into our new place and I adore it. Even though it is only a two bedroom and has a dozen stairs it feels amazingly huge. I love it here and want to stay as long as possible. The kids adore it too which I am so happy about, they can run around like nutz and no one cares its so great.
Well school has been going decent, my grads are slipping because I was not told I needed to format or cite everything (even my own opinion) since I neglected that I got down-graded a lot. Oh well, just need to step up and work harder I guess. I am also having issues with what I really want to do when I finally graduate. I love the idea of photography more and more everyday, I have always really enjoyed it I just never looked at it as a realistic profession. But I really think that kind of a job is what I'm looking for. Its all spontanious and I adore that, if only I could afford a fancy new camera without being forced to move again. Teaching for me is no longer apealing, I know it would be easy to get those kinds of jobs but every time I concider it I get more stressed.
I suppose everyone was going to find out eventually, I started weight watchers about a month ago. Its been a huge struggle for me, my weight has gone up and down like crazy and its extremely frustrating. I want to do this and I desperatly want it to work (partly because if it doesnt it will feel like a huge waste of money) and because I hate feeling so plumpy. Well my Wii Fit is due to be delivered today I just have to be consistant and pacient. ya right! Well here's to trying anyway.
Hubby and I are back on track for the most part. It was really hard to be a couple in my parents house but it has gotten conciderably better since we moved out, the stress is almost completly gone! I can finally breathe.
Well thats all I have for right now, its been an amazing day I can only hope it will last.
Well school has been going decent, my grads are slipping because I was not told I needed to format or cite everything (even my own opinion) since I neglected that I got down-graded a lot. Oh well, just need to step up and work harder I guess. I am also having issues with what I really want to do when I finally graduate. I love the idea of photography more and more everyday, I have always really enjoyed it I just never looked at it as a realistic profession. But I really think that kind of a job is what I'm looking for. Its all spontanious and I adore that, if only I could afford a fancy new camera without being forced to move again. Teaching for me is no longer apealing, I know it would be easy to get those kinds of jobs but every time I concider it I get more stressed.
I suppose everyone was going to find out eventually, I started weight watchers about a month ago. Its been a huge struggle for me, my weight has gone up and down like crazy and its extremely frustrating. I want to do this and I desperatly want it to work (partly because if it doesnt it will feel like a huge waste of money) and because I hate feeling so plumpy. Well my Wii Fit is due to be delivered today I just have to be consistant and pacient. ya right! Well here's to trying anyway.
Hubby and I are back on track for the most part. It was really hard to be a couple in my parents house but it has gotten conciderably better since we moved out, the stress is almost completly gone! I can finally breathe.
Well thats all I have for right now, its been an amazing day I can only hope it will last.
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