grrrrr! guys suck.
ok they don't but that doesn't mean i can't be frsutrated some days. last night i went to bed alone. it was after 2am... is it that hard to go to bed on time? what is on time anyway.... i don't even know anymore. i hate being frustrated with him. i get 4 hours of sleep on an average night lately my days have been longer because we don't have naps we try it just never works anymore. i want to scream... i love him to death but i'm not doing this anymore. 2am is bedtime it has to be if its earlier yay! but thats the latest i'm staying up. i know i've said that like 100 times now but this is it. tre' has to go to school and when i'm passing out making him almost miss his bus that takes him to school by NOON theres a problem.
weight loss is a waste of time. i gave up a week or two ago. i'm frustrated with it its not working and i'm tired of doing it alone. i've ate what i've wanted and drank md like its water... and in return nature added like 8lbs.... sigh. i'm so tired of this. i need motivation. i feel like i should just go hide and cry for a few hours makig everything better... i know it wont work but that doesnt mean i don't want to.
tomorrow will be better. it has to be. i just don't know that i can get anything back the way it was. and its frustrating. so many things to think about. simply put God sucks, husbands are not reliable like they should be, and i'm a fat lazy mother that isn't going anywhere in life. rediculas? i don't think so. at least not at this point. theirs no other way for me to look at it right now. please remember that these are vents and may change completly in a day or two just what i'm feeling right now.
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